I had enough. The sangha was not helpful anymore. It was pulling me down.
I was beginning to feel ashamed for having something to say.
I was, once again Too Much.
So I left.
I didn’t think I could breathe without them. But I’m doing just fine.
I’m like the kid who thought she was drowning in an in of water. Someone said, ” Lift up your head and stand up.”
(Update: November 16)
Well! That sounded pretty damn crazy!! If you didn’t know the whole story it would sound like a telling interview with someone about to be admitted to a nice soft room with cozy, padded walls.
The whole sound and vibration thing is about my long time interest in the healing properties of sound. I think that the human voice can be one of the best healing tools we have. I am intrigued by how energy and intent is delivered by sound. The reason I was so upset was that I felt no one would hear what I was trying to say.
The whole issue at Sangha got out of hand because there was some kind of wall between me and the people I tried to talk to…everything came out distorted and no one got the message…or so it seemed.
Somehow I was talking about things one one level. Then, whatever I said was distorted into some other message…IDK!
IDK what kind of shift occurred, but there was some weird shift all the same. I get a mental image of the worm hole scene in the move Contact. I will try to explain it better later on. https://youtu.be/scBY3cVyeyA