After the meetings, after Facebook and checking email, and after messaging people and making phone calls, it is quiet.
I have to face the quiet.
But I can’t do it alone, so I am with you.
And who are you, anyway?
I get so lost in my own head. I forget that your reality is not my own. You have a completely different world to wake up to, full of different values and different emergent beliefs.
Emergent is defined as something that is coming into being or becoming prominent. or in nature, emergent is a tree or plant that is taller than the other vegetation.
An emergent belief is one that stands out in the basic structure of a person’s days and may even become more prominent or less so with changing times.
My emergent beliefs are that the world is a good place and and I am glad to be of it.
But when I am disconnected from you, I am not entirely me.
I mean, “I am, I said.” and all that self realization stuff; I existentially am AND am more than that, too.
But I seem to be the kind of human that needs other beings to be entirely who I am, even when I am by myself, and I am not entirely sure I’m okay with that.
Barbara Streisand seemed to think people like me were lucky.
All my life I thought I wanted God more than anything in the world, and I still feel that way. But lately I see God in every one I see and all I want to do is give myself away as an offering to that divine light.
I am shaking as I write this.
To be so honest is risky and transformational.
It is the end of the day.
There is no where else to go, no one to talk to, nothing more to do but be