To Disappear

I am not the person I dreamed I could be because she was a mirage. 

I’m becoming nobody, the real me. 

Don’t worry! It is not that scary, 

It’s a relief to be free of the constant striving to be 

More proficient, more productive, 

 pure and more pristine in matters of the heart. 

It is good to let go and know that the world will continue to turn 

If I stop. 

Now that I know who I am not I am curious about what’s left 

And I’m left with choices, 

One after another. 

I choose to pray gratitude when I wake up, 

For the taste of roasted coffee. 

I choose to take ownership of my thoughts and to nurture 

Those that are either soft or fierce as I let the others flow by 

Like leaves on the stream. Or maybe I will let them all flow by, for 

Far from complacent I am engaged and unattached, wondering 

what might happen next,  

Curiosity is my soul’s sole guest. 

I am not at peace, as you may have guessed 

But in the middle of a transition, a look out point on the way to 

My next destination: the accumulation of all those matters of choice 

With which and with what tone of voice I say, “No.” or “Yes.” 

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